Tired & Restless [Part 1]

The usual routine was stopped abruptly, once upon a time.

The air was no longer filled with reminiscence, and memories of yesterday.
Her beautiful laugh no longer echoed throughout the house,
Because of something stupid I would always say.
Her beautiful eyes that once shone so brightly,
And could never decide if they wanted to be green or blue,
Were no longer open.
Her lungs that struggled to gasp for air through all the aches and pains,
No longer breathed.
The way she held herself high,
While biting her lip and gnawing on her nails,
No longer existed.
Her sighs of longing to be something greater, better,
No longer escaped her lips.

I'll never forget the day I saw the ending to her pain,
And the beginning of mine.

As I walked through their door, Nicole and Christine had left, being no where in the house.
I called out, expecting no response, and being correct by my prediction.
An eerie feeling swept over my entire body,
My breath caught in my throat as I slowly walked to the back bedroom where we had many laughs, cries, talks..
The silence was screaming what I already knew in my heart.
The cord that connected our hearts had been severed,
And weight was pushing down on my shoulders.
My quivering hands found their way to the door knob, hesitation, anxiety, fear, as the door swings open.
Time stops, as I see my beautiful best friend and sister lying on the floor,

Teary eyed, and broken.
I fall to my knees when I see the empty medication bottle on the floor next to her. My bottom lip quivers, causing my voice to shake as I speak, "Mich, baby. What.. what have you done?",
Her weak and glazed eyes flicker over to look me dead in the face and say, "I've finally ended my pain," The corners of her mouth turn upward, and she lets out a sigh. "And now I can finally feel okay, Rachelle.. Finally. After all these years.." Her voice trails off, and I grab her hand and clench it to me, sobbing and pleading. "Mich, I can't go on without you. You are my everything. You are my world. You aren't supposed to die before me. Bitch... We were going to see who could live the longest." She just laughed.
The thoughts hit me.
Overwhelm me,
Consume me.
Push me over the edge.
I leave my best friends fading life, for a moment, only to return with a full bottle of medication.
"You aren't leaving me in this hell hole alone, without you.", I say as I begin to down the capsules, handful after another. All she can do is watch as she dies, weak, and painless. I envy her for only a moment as the realization comes to me.
The realization that this is it. We are finally going to get our rest.