I'm Dead: My Life

Why say you love me when you don't
Why stay beside me then run for the door
This is life for me, so and so
But what I can't understand you see
Why know me when you won't

I've grown up with little now and again
Friends like family disappear quite often
Something that never seems to ever end
Nothing I can do so I sit and I pray
For God to bring them all back even just for a day

My heart hurts
It trembles inside
I'm tired of walking when I'm blind
I can see a little every now and again
Just enough for the pain to really sink in

I am alone
That's how it will be
Because of my past and my mentality
Maybe one day you will see
I'm just a girl, scared to truly be