Longing

Longing...
For the safety and comfort
Of being enclosed
Within the warmth
Of adoring angel wings
Fearing...
That it may be a trap
An illusion to fool me
And hold me hostage
In an eternal downward spiral
Of torturous damnation
I ache for the love I want, I need
But deny that it could ever be real
Because it will bring me
Face to face
With my pain
And I will know
All that I dread to know...
I will see
All that I am terrified to see...
And I will be forced to acknowledge
The truth of who I am
I am frightened I may not like her
And even more deathly afraid that I will...