need to be gone

i rolled over to see her..
i awoke in shame..
as i knew not where i was..

yet i know what i had done..
i drew the covers..
as i tried to remember..

as i turned to her in fear..
reaching to touch..
a body now forgotten..

i searched for her very name..
as i needed held..
if even by her embrace..

i whispered to her softly..
simply saying love..
in a hope she'd pull me near..

but instead she merely said..
you are still here..
hurry you need to be gone..