Help me

Every day is cold hollow
Hollow from the holes in my heart
Yet warm to
Heated below by the dying love flowing from my heart
Here I am at what should be my future
Bursting in excitement and dreams
And yet getting up is strainous
Living is impossible
So I exists in hurt heartbreak pain emptiness
Wishing I could believe
Believe in a future happiness love hope
But I'm to far gone
I don't know where if anywhere I am going
I'm in limbo
Being streamed along
The only thing standing still is me
A relic to the ages
slowly washing away
But young and in no peice or readiness to do so
But the pain plegs me deeper
How I wish I had a freind
A lover
To show me something in my life that makes me live