Deprivation of Hope: Be More than What's Happened to You

Deprivation of Hope: Be More than What’s Happened to You

Crying vulgar tears
overflowing sadness
far young for funerals
voice resides speaking softly
“Goodbye” heard without noise
bloody liquid bathes
trickles from a faucet
same she said for life
now only silence leaves lips
pain spreads like fire
contagion of Autumn
ashes cremated
escape my eyes
reality won’t present
truth is pain

Remembrance affection
lies not prevalent
now so relevant
whispering pillows
trembling sheets
nothing’s sacred anymore
leave me cheating
navigate colloids
spread like butter
picked crust
empty holes fill crimson
hurdle emotions
falling face to fist
flasks and potions empty

Gasping Asthma kicking
eroding corneas
eerie screams wake and silence
knobs brand scars
heat wafts around
charred skin and long gone hair
souls sigh
escape and wait
hoses water only ash
neighbors gape their mouths
tears stain liver-spot shoulders
strangely strong arms

Wild rebellious parties
rampant Rohypnol plus broken condoms
walk or taxi
tossing key quarterback
hardly walking
yellows, greens, reds
an outdoors man
wraps around spruce
concussion heart worries
ironic tree hugging
DWI dead while intoxicated

Fresh out degree in hand
beauty shines wearing diamond
rushed in said friends
trap door unseen
perception check, d20 anyone
without tracing, door left open
alimony sent stop calling
hate no just tired
enjoy Cancun
hang off the hook first words remind
“What’s your major? Me too...”

Met a new someone
who certain songs strike
parenting books litter
contractions seize waters flood
through pain dilated affection shines
doctor worries bringing trepidation
can’t stay screams echo
razor pendulum heart swings
can’t kick past doctor
where’s home when family’s gone

Bleach stings to audible beats
lub-dub says healthy heart
who’s going to comfort
being all grown up means nothing
liver-spot hands release
gray-white beard parts a sigh
Agnostics have no Heaven
for his sake
we’ll have ceremonies in all attire

Severance pay budgets only rent
overqualified sanitation expert
economical downturn of depression
mortgage house, home, life
sidewalk performance
kicked into gutters
discover me
give me and outlet

Eight years without mommy
daddy will hold you
not of my seed
love your blood like mine
splashing puddle pond
ankle deep rip currents
belly up fishboy no longer plays

Struggling encouraged brutality
pistol whipped crying face
judge, jury decide upon twelve years
innocence will not be preserved
join a gang
hold onto your soap

Felons can’t be trusted
when gavel strikes signs posted
thirty days leave
bought by state no longer yours
lacking passion anger’s content

Tags of dogs reminder to feral life
I.E.D. shield proves useful
you need legs to walk
for crawling not so much

Angel giving care
smiles at me jesting
yet retires when door opens

Light grenades fragment
cynical pessimism swallows

Scarcity of 5.56 prevents loss of life.