Captivity

My mind is a tornado, many thoughts encirle in my brain
I cant keep up with them and this world seems mundane
The room is spinning and I can barely breathe
And the voices in my head constantly try to deceive
I keep pressing on, thinking tomorrow will be a better day
Or it will be the end of this pain, because God will take me away

I close my eyes and clinch my fist
Glide this blade across my wrist
The vein don't bleed, it only clots
I'm a prisoner of these broken thoughts
My eyes are dry even though I weep
I wanna lay down and forever sleep

Inhaling smoke hoping my lungs explode
Gun to my head, let the chamber unload
The pressure in my head is like air in a tire
Walking through life as I slowly expire
Only one thing gives me the will to survive
Her love is the only thing that keeps me alive