Inner Torture and Suicidal Thoughts (How Do You Feel Now?)

I can't feel anything
I'm so fucking numb
come closer
So i can blow my head off right in front of you.  
I want your perfect face stained with my blood.  
I Don’t know what's happening to me.
I just don't want to be me anymore.

All hope is gone
And no one will save me
This is all your fault.
You were the only reason I'd stay alive.
Now that I know I'm nothing to you.  
I have nothing left to live for.

My head is about to explode.
All my thoughts ever do is cause more pain.
I could've sworn I heard your voice as I pulled the trigger.

Now that I'm dead, will you finally give a fuck?
I hope you finally realized how much you meant to me
I know I'm nothing to you
I was always nothing
Fuck....