silent goodbye

There comes a time in every persons life when they must fend for yourself and provide from your own means.I just dont want to fail.I want to be the definition of a man in my fathers eyes,weather he sees it in life or looking down.i know im capable of great things but his gentle guiding hands pushing me along the way would give me the assurance that i can accomplish anything i set out to do.
You're basically already gone but,i want you to know that i love you.i dont blame you for anything.know that when you go,you'll be taking my heart and soul with you.my sense of respect,non selfish pride and sweet caring nature.all the lessons you taught me that make me who i am,its all yours.i believe giving back is the best way to say thanks, i know i can never repay for everything you've done and the love you've given me,but i think giving you everything i am and what you made me should atleast be enough to say i love you dearly and you will be thaught about every single sober second of the rest of my life.however short,however long it may be.i love you.