Rushing liquid

Every sip
Every drip
I sucked you dry
Trying to dispell bad memories
The hard times didnt help
The pattern of violence wreck my mind
Even when relatives perished
I couldn't let go
She gave me the highs when I was low
She made me climb the mountains
Thinking I could go
Never perfect
I just stay isolated
In anticipation
That something better would come
Only time could tell