I Promise

How can I forget how to fear, When I’ve lived my life cowering in every corner
How can I forget how to hate, When I’ve lived my life covered in pure hatred
How can I forget how to spite, When I’ve lived my life covering you in malice
How can I forget the ruins, When I’ve lived my life crumbling beneath the sun

I don’t want to wait forever to change, But how do I begin today better than yesterday
I don’t want to wait forever to love, But how do I begin by loving the demon in me
I don’t want to wait forever to be with you, But how do I begin to overcome myself
I don’t want to wait forever to see the horizon, But how do I begin to rise above rock bottom

I am trapped beneath the remnants of a broken cathedral, Hatred, Lies, Vices, Sin
I am so broken beneath the remnants trapped in time, Fools, Liars, Vipers, Killers
I am screaming out to a god that hears nothing, Sees nothing of the struggle in me
I am screaming out to a world that feels nothing, Knows nothing of the pain in me

You’re begging me to become something better, Something that could love you
You’re begging me to become something wiser, Something that could know you
You’re begging me to become something fearless, Something that could trust you
You’re begging me to become someone else, Who I am keeps me from who you are

I promise I would give you the world, If I had but a pile of dirt to call my own
I promise I would give you the sky, If I had but a pile of stars to call my own
I promise I would give you my mind, If I had but a pile of thoughts to call my own
I promise I would give you my heart…You tore my heart out, and demand another one