Dear mom

I wasn't addicted to drugs
I was addicted to self-harm
Maybe if i had more hugs
I wouldn't have this scar on my arm
It eventually took control of my mind
It was all i would ever do
Until it got me into a bind
All of this was caused by you
I was always depressed or mad
It hurts, but the pain won't go away
You make me feel like i did something bad
That was when i began to stray
It started with little scratches
They soon turned into bleeding cuts
Soon, I'm gonna start losing patches
But before then I'll probably go nuts
My family started thinking i was suicidal
It was all caused by a dumb bitch
I realized then that i was homicidal
Maybe one day you'll fall in a ditch
This battle will never be over
but i made a promise to my baby brother
I told him it would take time to recover
I can't believe we called you our mother