bottled up memories

 back in september
i had these feelings
emotions
memories
that flooded my mind
i didnt understand them
nor why they were coming back
but they made me sad
to the point where i couldnt stop crying for hours
i told my boyfriend it was jus the pregnancy and i was ok
and that i jus needed some time to think to myself
he looked worried.
2 years ago i was in a different relationship
we got together on the month of september.
thats when things were good
and i was happy


the memories and emotions faded in time
and now a new month comes.
when the weather starts to get warmer
i smell the familiar difference in the air.
the memories of the past year come back to mind


i feel locked up
restricted
from being able to say a final goodbye

i miss the past
and i want to be around it again
but life goes on
sadly