Scars

After the scars heal,
And the pain seems to ease,
I will have to go.
Seeking the pain
And hoping for forgiveness;
For I am not real.
Simply an illusion
Of the heart and mind
Grieving together.
The world will stop
And my heart will suffer.
They day the scars finally heal.
The scars on my heart
And arms.
Almost invisible but still there.

I stopped looking so long ago.
Meeting him I thought
There was nothing left for me to look for.
But I was wrong.
I'm still looking for
His smile.
His laugh.
His hugs
And his love.
And that is all I am looking for.