Bittersweet Ending

As I picked up the gun I felt a lump in my throat.
Contemplating whether I should leave a note.
Another tear dripped down my cheek from my bloodshot eyes
I don't see why I should,no one cares if I die.
Some think I'm crazy or even insane
but truthfully I'm hurt,at the same time I'm numb from the pain

I took one final breath to prepare for the blow,
I never would've guessed this is  how my life would go.
I felt myself grit my teeth as they started to chatter
And for a brief moment I saw the blood splatter.

It dripped down the walls and was all over the floor
I never had to hurt or feel the pain anymore
No more heartaches,no more sorrow,
No more worrying about tomorrow

I was left with no hope and was tired of pretending
That's why I gave my life such a bittersweet ending!