Acceptance

She stumbles blindly down a long black hall
Her entire world covered in shadowy pall
Faintly lighting her path is a slim sliver of faith
The thing she’s clung to despite anxiety’s wraith
Yet her heart begins filling with dark despair
As she looks but cannot find him anywhere
He must be here; he wouldn’t leave
Surely he knows it’s to him that she cleaves
Everywhere reminders of him she sees
But her panic refuses to be appeased
She struggles resolutely to hold back tears
Admonishing herself to ignore her fears
So both brave and scared she advances along
Searching each room for he she worries is gone
“I’m not going anywhere,” he used to say
Now she fears that he truly has gone away
Everyone say such before things turn rotten
Then she’s deserted again, lost and forgotten
Some promises mean naught when the going is rough
They’ll always be there, until they’ve had enough
“He’s not like the rest!” her brain insists
But deep inside, her heart resists
All her trepidation, all her anguish and pain
Return to the surface again and again
In the distance she thinks she hears his voice
And part of her silently starts to rejoice
But her joy is smothered just as it blooms
How will she find him with all these rooms?
Every door she opens leads to an empty space
It’s been so long since she’s seen his smiling face
Where is he hiding? Why won’t he come out?
She tries so hard to dismiss her doubts
As she turns a corner, she sees him at last
She hears the echoes that ring from the past
And before she even can feel relief
She sees him there, torn apart with grief
Locked in a prison that he has designed
He’s trapped Himself inside his own mind
Realization dawns then overwhelms her
He too misses what they once were
Guilt rises up as she watches him bleed
This isn’t all about what she needs
It hurts to know she helped cause his misery
And to know that is why she can’t set him free
For she handed him much of the steel bit by bit
Used to create the cell in which he now sits
Reluctantly she accepts she must let him alone
This is something he must conquer all on his own
She’s part of the reason that he now hides
This man that she promised she’d love ‘til she died
She knows he’ll come back if ever he can
For if he was ever meant to be hers, he will be again