Bad Traffic

Searching for emotional clarity
This alternate reality is scaring me
I'm starting to wonder if I even exist
With all the warning signs I might have missed
I can't find time in this emotional space
As I watch pieces of myself disintegrate
Breaking apart a little more each day
Gearing up for a trip down Brokenhearted Lane
It's the only destination I seem to know well
Maps of the heart lead me to give so much of myself
And I always stop and those stupid red lights
My search for safety never goes right
Picking up lost souls at the side of the road
Listen to their story as they let off a load
Unlock the door to the passenger side
Tell them to get in and let's just drive
Relaxing and bonding connecting at the core
This could be what we've both been looking for
Radio plays the soundtrack of the vibe
\It's easy to get lost inside the ride
Holding out my hand to yours reaching for mine
Possibilities of love flood heart and blur eyes
Can't see quite where we're going but there is no rush
Two broken pieces made whole when we touch
Consumed by the feeling of a future where we live
Where we help each other grow and give all we can give
Finding ways to let all those walls smash
Somehow forgetting to prepare in case of a crash
I'm a pretty good driver confident in my skills
I know how to navigate between truth and one night thrills
Still I seem to lose grip of the wheel
When I hold onto the way I feel
Swerving left and right to avoid collisions with rejection
Eventually I make my way up mountains of affection
To magical sceneries laden with beauty
But these illusions and mirages only fool me
And then I seem to forget to look behind
So the past hits hard with a point to remind
Love and hate coming at me from every single direction
Flashing signals scream I should have paid more attention
If I had someone who would mutually share the driving
I'd probably have a better chance of surviving
Instead of fighting on when I know that I'm tired
Investing much more than should ever be required
Sometimes accidents just happen it's true
You never really know if and when it could be you
I've just learned that the end can be quite miserable and tragic
If you don't find a way to stay out of bad traffic