Before it's too late

For so long all I've known is dope,
Never thinking there was any hope,
Feeling so hopeless and cold,
Until now I always assumed I'd never grow old,
For a long time I never gave a shit about my own life,
I was too worried about everyone else's own personal strife,
That isn't right,
So I started looking for my own light,
Not religion, no, but something better then this,
Just about anything is better then this,
Need to discover my true meaning,
When you strip away the dope I'm just another human being,
Every time I stick another needle in my arm,
It's only causing my body even more harm,
I've brought my family a lot of pain,
And I gotta say it's driving me fucking insane,
How much longer can I continue on?
Eventually that one blast will kill me, and in an instant my life will be gone.