Always too much

A familiar feeling...
It always finds a way to come back...
Always finds a way in...
It makes me hate life...
Brings in so much strife...

Makes me question all I do...
If I did something right, I wouldn't have a clue...
Always questioning..
Always trusting too much..
Always caring too much..
Always loving too much..
If i push them away..
Will they stay?..
If I start to feel good it must be wrong..
Or that's what it turns out to be..

Afraid to get close...
Afraid to say too much..
And hating every moment...