Signs Of Expression, What Is The Frequency?

I really did think I could save her
the positive vibes like a blanket of comfort
that my concern and sincere affection
could dissolve the straight jacket of doom

Found books to educate my mind
consulted with experts on human brain
created an arsenal of items
that in the past provided deep and long smiles

Waited patiently for those times when her need was carnal
didn't press the issue when it was not
spontaneous gestures and calming tones
unlimited in my good deeds

But like invading Russia in the dead of winter
impossible was the only result found
for when the shelf is bare nothing has it's limits
even the worst pie needs ingredients

The soul was barren the heart has been hallowed
the reaction to the accumulation of cuts and bruises
a protective shell has emerged, a thick outer skin
all my weapons of positive penetration have been for naught

For the residual of what has happened
is not even negative
even negative I could deal with
she has been claimed by indifference

My trinkets and gestures do not resonate
as if the emotion has been buried so deep
reality is those feelings can not be accessed via external sources
the tragedy of Celeste  proceeds on a solitary course