Misdirected Dreams

I lept before proper preperation
I fled because I felt used
I hid because I couldn't stomach seeing you
because I didn't want to face
In reality it was I who was rude

I didnt care about your likes or dislikes
I didnt care what you believe
I never wanted a friend
or provide what you crave
I'd vomit trying to gulp these lies

You didn't impact me
I never think of you
Your smile makes me sick
tied up and fed lies
forced to kick

Strive and struggle
you'll be my bride
all day cuddles
I decline title "guy on the side"

So here is my heart
in open hands
my desires my wants
my devious plans
three hour monologue rants
falling to my knees in the sand
A sadness that must be learned
and teach my conscious
I must live without your love