Loves false pleasure an pains

NOT FINISHED  
 
From the very first moment, I didn't know it but I fell for you,  
soon enough, you left me hopeless and broken, what was I to do?  
I focused solely on us but you thought my emotions were far from true.  
your presence was my enjoyment and we had every component to make  
it work but loving you and giving you everything my heart possessed just  
wasn't enough.you left my heart stuck like 4 wheels down in the mud.  
leaving my metal heart drowning in tears ready to rust. crumbling my  
every effort of gaining your love into dust. Hearing of you and other men  
just left me in disgust.you turned hurtful jokes into painful insults and still  
expected my trust. WHAT THE FUCK? Was I supposed to sit there, let it go  
and just let loose? FUCK NO! I had to break these chains laced with needing  
you, so I let go, but don't get me wrong, leaving you in tears is not  
something I'm proud of. But the friend-zone isn't a club I want to be part of.  
So I made the hardest decision and your vice is something I needed to find  
my way out of.