New City

The key to working
with what is so deeply unwanted
is to let go of the ideas
 (the thoughts)
about how we shouldn't be sick  
and what will happen to us if we remain sick.
Somehow we have to respect the illness, welcome it
enter into it
we surrender and say okay
what have you to teach me?
about letting go of control
about slowing down
about tasting the full experience of a moment
the light the sound the quality of our mood
of our pain
the sight of dust or birds or nothing special
respecting all that
It's a kind of death this illness
the best kind of death if we'll let it be
It's the death of old stuck
patterns and opinions and habits  
and it makes way for something
new to be born in us Really  you can trust that
Something new will be born
if you'll let the illness  
show you where to let go your grip
And please don't scold yourself for failing, ever.