Rage

This rage you put deep in my thoughts
The mind that's saying kill you I won't
I'm not that fucking stupid I say
This rage this pain won't go away
I wish that you would just fucking die
And leave me here alone to cry
I wish that you would take yourself
And leave me to the one I trust
My mom no other is my best friend
She understands and listens and never does
Judge my rage still messing with my
Thoughts of how I want to die
Maybe this time I will succeed who knows
I don't because I can't process through
All this information only because my mind
Won't let me have these deep thoughts of death
My one and other thoughts of distress
I'm crying and lonely only because I need
The air ot breathe, my suicide attempt will be long
And for this I will be strong, no eating, no cutting
I swear I will starve myself till I get this care
The one I need for you to see, then just leave
This rage inside of me, it will wear off eventually
I swear this rage it consumes me, I need it to be clear
God why god have you made the plea to take this rage
Away from me, but I'm glad you do cause I am through
This rage no more consumes me fuck it I'm done
Cause you have won, I won't be there to see, fuck
you dad the battle is won I'll wait for this sun
I'm done with all this rage
Fuck you dad the battles been won