Not Living

I'm living this life but I feel like I'm not living anymore.  I feel so alone around these people.  They don't know nor will they understand that everyday that goes by I'm breaking. I've taken so many hits that the wall I had up is crumbling down. My feelings and emotions are scattered all over the place. I don't know what's real anymore. Been told so many lies that I don't know who to trust. I have no true friends. I'm missing my old life. I used to have the greatest people around me. I never felt sad nor did I feel invisible. But now all I want to do is run away, get away from everything and everyone. I've put up with so much to be strong.  Everyone who said they were going to be there are gone. No need in sticking around. They won't miss me.