All I Can Do...

Why can't I yell and scream,

get all these emotions out of me?

I've never been able to,

feel relief from this grief,

this all encompassing grief,

so real, the knots inside of me,

that only tighten  around my heart.

If only I could yell and scream,

vocally throw those knots out,

let my life rest.

But I can't, never have been able,

to do this one simply thing,

instead I hold it all inside until

release comes in the form of tears.

So many tears, so much sadness,

the grief never goes away.

Always stays deep inside of me,

wearing at my heart and soul,

when all they want is peace and love,

contentment, happiness.

And all I can do is hold it all inside,

until like a weakened dam, the walls

break down and I cry.