Dead silence

Awakened to a strange new place
Right beside me is a strange new face,

My immature tendencies have forsaken me
Scared of what we have done
I ask her did we play Russian roulette
Just without the gun

You did not mind last night
I did not think twice
I looked at her with concern

You need to leave I better not have a disease

Used and feeling abused she left in disrespect and regret

Calling a place that I know all too well
Walking with my head held down
I look at the clerk and she only frowns

Back again I see aren't you scared of contracting a std

I messed up but I always have good luck
Take a seat we will be with you soon

Praying that I do not have a terrible fate
Doctor comes in well sir do you think you can win again

Now time to wait so I begin to pace,
Pace back and forth hoping I can yell in rejoice

A look of concern my throat begins to burn, Your life has been suicide
No one to blame but myself
I walk out crying uncontrolled
My emotions I cannot hold

What have I done thought my life was suppose to be fun,
My life is now done

I keep it to myself
Nobody knows
I begin to disappear,
people wonder,
People fear is it drugs are you hanging with thugs

I wither away like the end of a day
Silent as the night
Quiet was my death slowly eating me alive

No way to survive everyone cried
They did not know why
I was so young
My life was full and fun

Contracting a disease yes it was HIV
Slowly and silently it took my life
Due to one night my soul took flight
Wishing along the way that I did not stray