my hate for you

i hate life
i hate the way i am
i hate everything
i really don't give a damn
even with my family
i never feel emotional with
i cry drops of blood
i move like a zombie
i dream of dying when something bad happens to me
oh how peaceful it is
when i let go
i just wanted you to know
im not sorry for my future
or the way i act
but please just give me my pride back
whatever you said i was or is
i know my fist you want to taste
im sorry,not for me
but your ungrateful face