being neglected can kill

dear mother,

i love you,

im sorry,

i wasnt good enough,

dear father,

forgive me,

cause in your eyes,

i just never added up.





i knew you thought of me as the black sheep,

just some fucking nerdy little creep,

could never walk in either of your shoes,

you turned me into the fuck you see today,

i guess i just wanted to say,

fuck you.

heres how i got my payback for the years no neglect........




i walked into the house children screaming outside,

you both ask me where the fuck i have been,

i dont answer as neither one of you noticed the tears that i cried,

just think that soon i will practice my dream,

walking up the dull lit stairs,

i realize how little i care,

get to the top i go to the bathroom and wash my hands,

looking down the blood disappears down the drain,

looking in the mirror i feel like im no longer sane,

i go to my room and lift out my knife,

i unlatch the blade and take it to my chest,

and, well, you know the rest,

i clean the wound and wait for them to go to bed,

i wait half an hour then i go and get fed,

in the kitchen i eat what i can i need my strength,

abused and neglected for far too long,

soon, i tell myself, soon they will see what they do is wrong,

i finish my sandwich and head back up,

brought a glass of water with me to sip in my room,

i sit on the edge of my bed and just whisper, soon,

about 20 minutes have passed and the moon light brightens the way,

this will be such a way to end the day,

i walk out of my room and across the hall,

when i reach my parents door we get a phone call,

phone phone rings and i dash to my door,

my dad leaves the room and my mother shouts, i cant do this any more,

i wait and i wait and 1 hour goes by,

he hasnt come back up he must half fallen asleep on the couch,

i go back to their bedroom door i slowly open it and sneak in and crouch,

i hidden in the corner hidden by shadow,

tears tripping me now, fucking get a grip you saddo,

i watch her sleep in her bed figure of a queen,

you know what i mean,

i pull the bed sheet back and run my hand up her leg,

i brought the balde with me so i carefully cut her gown off,

made of silk so it come back easy and show her sexy figure off,

im fully naked but rock fucking solid,

what i do next most sane people would class as horrid,

i put my hand between her legs until shes wet,

shes a heavy sleep no chance she'll wake up,

and i open her legs and move in between, you know the rest,

i cum up inside her and i leave to my room,

next few months where a blur of hurt, pain, beatings and blood,

adn im tired of crying these tears are now floods,

about 5 months go by and shes bragging she up the duff,

tells her friends that shes had a child she wants instead of a fuck up,

the pain ive endured is nothing to what i have planned,

i set it in motion when they leave for an ultra sound scan,

hiding and waiting for when they get back,

i strike when they walk through the door, whack,

dad falls to the floor and i force her to strip him,

hes naked and i hand her a blade telling her to chop cut and slice,

she looks at me in horror and i scream, IM NOT TELLING YOU TWICE,

what do you want me to do? she asks playing real thick,

i just laugh and tell her to cut off his nipples, tounge and dick,

your fucking sick,

no you an dhim are the sick ones, you fucking hate me because why?

tell me please i want to know because i sure as fuck dont,

NOW CUT!!! i scream,

she does it cuts off all three,

i bring over an electric powered juicer,

putting the cock ad nipples and tongue of the beast,

what an epic feast,

your not going to eat that are you?

i tell her im not but she will,

the old fart dies he bleeds to death,

rest in peace and all the rest,

i take another very sharp knife adn walk to the whore,

oh by the way mother, theres more,

i turn the juicer on and whats in it turns to paste,

shes sitting down but i fight her and force the blade up her pussy,

i look her in the eye and tell her lets not put anything to waste,

i pull the blade out and cut into her womb,

all i can say mother is you'll have 2 kids very soon,

i pull this thing out its all deformed,

she looks in horror, its my child mother,

i raped you, came in you, wanted to for quiet some time,

this fucking horrible mess of a child is mine,

now i will show you how you made me feel all of the time,

i put the dead mutated baby in the juicer too,

i laugh and i tell her i guess its only fair,

to put the cock she locked and that child back where they belong,

so i force her legs open pussy all bloody from the knife,

i lick it all clean, grab a funnel and begin to pour,

its all in there baby, cock, nipples and something more,

she looks at me and i tell her its over,

i took some acid from a chem store,

soon she begins to scream and shout,

i sit there and watch, had a cheeky wank as she naked and exposed,

i cum on her stomach as she struggles,

about 2 minutes pass by and she really starts to shout,

and i sit back down as i watch her melt from the inside out,

just before she dies so cruel,

i just whisper, i came inside you,

i know that sick but your my mother, you...,

she before she dies all i hear is her sayin, i always loved you,

i couldnt stop the tears that i cried,

but then i realized that even in her death, that fuckign whore lied.....................