Future Written in Stone

I miss you
And
That scares me
It scares me
Because
That makes me vulnerable
It makes me weak
It makes me soft
It makes me easy 
To rip to shreds
Like paper
You can crumble me
Toss me in the trash
Leave me there
I know you think
That I am tough
That I am not damaged
That I am cute
That I am practical
When really I am worse than you
I am clingy
I am insecure
And every minute
Of every day
I am waiting for
Everyone to leave
Because everyone has
What makes you so
Different? 
That I love you? 
With my heart and soul
And a moment away from you
Is one moment to many?
No it makes it worse!
It means it will hurt 
THAT
Much more
So why even try?
When it will always
End in tears