Depression isn't done with me

I told you I was done with you,
but I guess you got offended,
and  decided for yourself that you're not done with me.
Maybe I spoke to soon,
or thought to quick that I was free forever.
When I'm happy,
and think I'm free from grasp
I know you're lurking in the shadows,
and waiting to catch me off guard.

You use to tell me I didn't need medication,
And you used that tactic to gain control over me.
Now that I've been lowering my medication
I believe I can beat you on my own,
but how do I know you're not the one
whispering in my ear that I don't need my medication?
How do I know you're not using this
to your advantage to try and gain control again?

I served you with divorce papers.
That didn't get rid of you,
but it gave me freedom for awhile.
I feel as if though I felt free
you retreated back to your cave,
but only to create a new plan of taking back control.

I have a disadvantage against you,
and that is I am only a human being
while you are a shape shifter.
You come in all different shapes and forms that I can't compete with.
though only human, I do have an advantage against something as dark as you,
and that advantage is I have a heart.
Since you are something that needs a host you will never have a heart.

You took people who meant the most to me away.
I know you will not stand down till you have me in your collection of lost souls.
We both know I'm not that easy to get,
especially after all the hard work I've been doing to learn how to beat you.

Depression isn't with me.
I am not done with depression.
If it's a war he wants,
than it's a war he shall get.
I guarantee you though,
I will be the phoenix rising from the ashes to victory!

I may be only human,
but I have a heart of a warrior,
a mind of a king,
a soul of a fairy,
and a body of a phoenix.
Now tell me who is bound to win this war?
I AM!