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its all about me/HIM
what the fuck is it all about...
Im back in the dark side,
things are rushing all around my body,
my brain is rushing too,So many thoughts its hard to put pen to paper.
Ive been here before,I said "I would never go there again"
but I have.
I hate myself..
last time I lost a lot,
Why have I done this to myself,
Who am I ?
I look at myself in the eyes,
I see my self looking at me,
I say "you don't know me and I don't know you"
There seems to be two of us within one mind.
Who is this other voice that has more POWER than me.
I/Him just keep taking more coke.Line after line.
Its almost like ! this voice just wants to push me and push me.
I know its wrong what im doing.But he wants more coke....
I hate this other person that's within me.
He just don't care about me or himself..
Must say "haven't seen him for a long time"
Thought I had him under control.
How fucking wrong was I..!!!!
"What is he ?"
Does he have body ? or is he just a voice in my mind..
As im writing, im also trying to talk to him.
But as I wrote that last sentence he went.
OH FUCK !!! He does come and go then.
Ill look for him in my mind....
I can not find him..
Im calling out, "where are you...you fucking prick"..NOTHING !!!
I look at the coke that's on the table..I don't want it ?
WHAT the fuck is going on..Has this letter removed him from my mind..A BIG "FUCKING NO" HES SAYS...
"YOU HAVE GOT ME LIFE"
Im back in the dark side,
things are rushing all around my body,
my brain is rushing too,So many thoughts its hard to put pen to paper.
Ive been here before,I said "I would never go there again"
but I have.
I hate myself..
last time I lost a lot,
Why have I done this to myself,
Who am I ?
I look at myself in the eyes,
I see my self looking at me,
I say "you don't know me and I don't know you"
There seems to be two of us within one mind.
Who is this other voice that has more POWER than me.
I/Him just keep taking more coke.Line after line.
Its almost like ! this voice just wants to push me and push me.
I know its wrong what im doing.But he wants more coke....
I hate this other person that's within me.
He just don't care about me or himself..
Must say "haven't seen him for a long time"
Thought I had him under control.
How fucking wrong was I..!!!!
"What is he ?"
Does he have body ? or is he just a voice in my mind..
As im writing, im also trying to talk to him.
But as I wrote that last sentence he went.
OH FUCK !!! He does come and go then.
Ill look for him in my mind....
I can not find him..
Im calling out, "where are you...you fucking prick"..NOTHING !!!
I look at the coke that's on the table..I don't want it ?
WHAT the fuck is going on..Has this letter removed him from my mind..A BIG "FUCKING NO" HES SAYS...
"YOU HAVE GOT ME LIFE"
Published 22nd Jun 2013
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22nd Jun 2013 7:01am
Nice writting. Just tweak ur grammar a lil and it'll splendid...
I enjoyed this read
I enjoyed this read
thank you....I had a whole 2 days with my old friend the coke monster 7/6/2010
22nd Jun 2013 11:47pm
24th Jun 2013 00:53am
i first saw this on the list of new peoems.
i mean to say this in the hope you might better urself, im not just being hostile.
having spotting this in the "new" list and not realling digging it, i thought that id better give it a chance.
but its shit man. of course anyone whos in the drug scene for too long is gunna be "on the dark side" ( for example) im sure if u tried you could reeally add some spice to it, to make it really personal and scarey. but so far, from what i read, its just "blah blah its dark im sad its not nice etc etc etc"
i dont mean to dishearten you in anyway, and would be more than happy to help u as best as i can. but please try.
xxxx - all my love ARJ
i mean to say this in the hope you might better urself, im not just being hostile.
having spotting this in the "new" list and not realling digging it, i thought that id better give it a chance.
but its shit man. of course anyone whos in the drug scene for too long is gunna be "on the dark side" ( for example) im sure if u tried you could reeally add some spice to it, to make it really personal and scarey. but so far, from what i read, its just "blah blah its dark im sad its not nice etc etc etc"
i dont mean to dishearten you in anyway, and would be more than happy to help u as best as i can. but please try.
xxxx - all my love ARJ
30th Jun 2013 00:19am
hello...
thank you for your opinion..
Have you ever taken drugs ?...
Explain to me your terminology of your words,
not digging it..? just so I can fully understand you.
Why do you think that all people who do drugs for a long time are going to be "on the dark side"
Q...Where do you get your information from..?
You also said its blah blah...
That tells me,
that you do not fully understand what happened that night..
Why do you think..your comments would dishearten
me..? I do not need your help "Thank you"
All I require is some ANSWERS...
regards daddycool
thank you for your opinion..
Have you ever taken drugs ?...
Explain to me your terminology of your words,
not digging it..? just so I can fully understand you.
Why do you think that all people who do drugs for a long time are going to be "on the dark side"
Q...Where do you get your information from..?
You also said its blah blah...
That tells me,
that you do not fully understand what happened that night..
Why do you think..your comments would dishearten
me..? I do not need your help "Thank you"
All I require is some ANSWERS...
regards daddycool
Anonymous
26th Jul 2013 4:02am
Welcome to DU!! I can understand this write all too well. Never mind the comment above. I can tell you wrote this from the heart. Writing you is always the best way. :)
