I don't want to stay

I just want to go away today
just to go and forget everything
to escape, man i just want to go away
there is nothing here for me
dont you see
i am nothing, worthless,
i might as well be defenseless
come on mom, dont you realize that this what you’ve made me
and my dad, the true face of what is bad
all alone in my home, with all the sadness and the madness
i feel like a tennis ball, being beat back and forth
moving to and fro, from peace to violence
i have no real defense
man, do i just want to go away
i dont want to stay
and i wont, i dont have to be here
with all the pain, there is nothing to gain
by staying here with the only monsters in my world
i dont know how long i can hold on
but i wont go another day alone, im going away
i dont want to stay