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Am I Evil???
MY thoughts drifting and dancing in the darkness.
Watching and listening for the evil part of me.
Wanting to see the dream happen.
I hold myself tightly in happiness.
I have dreamed this dream so many times before.
Seeing him dead and lying on the floor.
Blood and matter splattered.
I feel my adrenaline pumping throughout.
Giving me the urge to carry this out.
The gun in hand hovering, watching, and pointing.
As he lies there I stare and stare.
My trigger finger itching and wanting to squeeze.
I should have done it and lived happily behind prison bars.
Admittingly I was scared.
Fucking choked.
The weight of the gun heavy in my small hands.
I placed it back in the closet kicking myself in the ass.
Walking to my room crying and fighting mad.
A ten year-old boy who wanted to shoot his dad.
Watching and listening for the evil part of me.
Wanting to see the dream happen.
I hold myself tightly in happiness.
I have dreamed this dream so many times before.
Seeing him dead and lying on the floor.
Blood and matter splattered.
I feel my adrenaline pumping throughout.
Giving me the urge to carry this out.
The gun in hand hovering, watching, and pointing.
As he lies there I stare and stare.
My trigger finger itching and wanting to squeeze.
I should have done it and lived happily behind prison bars.
Admittingly I was scared.
Fucking choked.
The weight of the gun heavy in my small hands.
I placed it back in the closet kicking myself in the ass.
Walking to my room crying and fighting mad.
A ten year-old boy who wanted to shoot his dad.
Published 15th Nov 2010
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16th Nov 2010 3:24am
It has this spice that contents me, such imagery and vivid magic dispelled throughout this prose. It centered beautifully and read well. Great writing.
Sincerely,
Darkys Black
Sincerely,
Darkys Black
4th Sep 2011 2:31am
