The Angel in Me

Today was suppose to be... Well a beautiful day... But my closest friend passed away... I cried and thought about the time we shared together, I can still see you, Flashing that stupid smile forever, I remember the good, I remember the bad, And I remember... Every moment spent together, Times I will forever treasure, Each tear shed today, Will be in remembrance of my homie I wish god didn't take away, I guess you earned your feathers, One of gods angels now, And what can I say... Nothing feels the same, I can't lie, I'm suffering surrounded by pain, Haunted by an illness suffocating my thoughts, Directly affecting my brain, I know you are watching, Saving my ass protecting me, I can feel you still, Your spirit lives in me, We have seen hell but heaven was always out of reach, We talked about it, You know the light at the end of the tunnel, Man I wish I knew what it is like, Once again you have me thinking, What it would be like to be you, You always said our time will come, Live when you are young, And give back when you are done, Now that my future seems clouded, I shall fear no evil, I just think of you, I know you wouldn't allow it, When you look down, Sounds fitting... But through those clouds, I hope what you see makes you proud, I never gave up, Even when god tested me, When he took everything that was left of me, My closest friend, My better half, The angel I always wanted to be...

-cj