I grew up to fast..

I never really had a childhood
even if I could, I never would
I didn't get to play outside with my friends
because it seemed like mom's shifts never end
I learned how to do many things
yet I was still young somethings
I grew up to fast...

My older sister had to watch us
but they always partied and forgot us
Ana had to step up to look over us
but sometimes she was lazy
and I may seem weird, but we went a little crazy
I had to step up and watch the little one
At times I felt really done
I was only eight or nine
(at the time)
so I had to grow up....

I always wished
I never missed
those happy childhood memories
It feels like a century
since I was a young kid
this wasn't what I thought
I had always fought
my mind from the past
all the unmade memories that are cast
the dark ages never last
I grew up to fast...

Look  at me now
I messed up my life
just stab me with a knife
I can't go on like this
but what can I do?
I am so pissed
I am never missed
I can't leave my past
shadows are always cast
I grew up to fast.....