~Sadistic-Indifference~

I know you find my pain amusing. Hoping that confusing, all the fact's of what we were, will help you to deter, the endless lonely nights, fighting for your rights, as a grown up in this life. But all grown up's deal with strife. So mesmerized by the sound of my heart cracking, that you don't realize you are lacking, what it take's to make you feel. As I penetrate the cold steel, encasing an empty space,  keeping seeker's from that place because they won't find any trace, of where your heart supposed to be. You remember me, clawing at the vault, taking blame without fault. Withdrawing from the absence of the love that you once gave. A starving slave, trying desperately to be brave, I venture into that empty cave, looking for the promises inside. I push forward without pride and hesitant as I stride into the abyss. Now I'm no longer able to dismiss, my willingness to share a dark kiss, that carries me back to yesterday's lost. Traveling over lines, best not crossed, I can pay your price but not the cost. Loaded dice carelessly tossed back against the iron curtain. Never certain of the loss. It's my mortal soul that you'll give away, when you haven't got the toll to pay, the ferryman to get to the other side of the river Styx. Stopping by to say, "hi" and just to get your kick's . While this "junkie" waits for one last fix. Way overdue, longing for you, to finally seal her fate and bring release to her living hell, before it get's to late.