sorry

loosing what i dont deserve,
losing my every nerve,
feels like swimming in smoke,
because when i try to breathe i choke.

i choke and bite my own tongue,
because i know my pain has only just begun,
the greatest pain i had was watching you walk away,
never turning your head i cry wishing i could stay.

my minds edge is slipping feels like tearing,
for my soul belonged to you for the caring,
the pain i have caused you i cant repair,
in that split moment it seemed like i didnt care.

you will always hold my heart,
you always did, right form the start,
even though you hate me now,
i want o make it up to you somehow.

i have said alot of things to you,
like, you look gorgeous and i love you too,
but the pain in your eyes and tears i caused,
my heart broke and my pain stopped in pause.

ive said alot of things to make myself look good,
like i would do anything for you if i could,
i meant that and i hope you know i still would.

when i met you fires began to rise,
i was walking around with my head in the skies,
but because of my my baby my love cries,
and because of the my heart dies.

there was one thing that i never said,
my heart is so nearly dead,
i hurt more with each passing hour, please answer me,
you answer your phone and i say those 3 words, im so sorry.