night terrors

I cross the road to the pitch black
to follow that little spark in the depths of my heart
it takes over my vitals, making me high
I try to stay grounded but I give up as tears swell up in my eyes
my body goes cold; limp
As i watch my breath dance around my face in a white cloud
so real i could feel it?
It's not at all what I expected
the road didn't lead to where I thought
lost inside my dreaming
screaming to get out
I attempt to chase away my demons
but they continue to break me down while muting all sound that seeped through the light from the other side
if only for a night I could subside to the next
and be lifted from these night terrors that steal me from my rest
I might not have to cross the road to where the darkness comes alive.