there is blood everywhere...aroud me...

I've hit he right vein
I laugh i've never felt this much beautiful pain
I look down to see my arms wet and red
I laugh and scream out "this is it i'm dead"
I try to stand but I fall
My blood is getting on everything as I crawl
Then I lock the door
I silently scream as I watch the blood pour

On my door I hear knocking
But i'm not answering
I stare at the blood all over my room and walls
As my ability to focus and will to live falls
I look at my bloody razorblade
To die I am not afraid
It's what i've always wanted
So I can forget every past memory that has haunted