Fathoming the End...

Born in hate
Raised in fear
Live in darkness
Is the end near?

I see no light
I feel no love
There is no power
From the great above.

The Lord has rejected
My heart and soul
Why would He give me
A life with no goal?

He does not acknowledge
The pain I am in
Or He'd give me my death
And forgive me of sin.

Self destruct
Mutilate
Pierce and burn
Is Hell my fate?

Will I be damned
To an eternal lake
Of fire and flames
And the torture they make?

Or will He forgive
And let me rest
In Heaven with him?
No longer a pest.

A pest to father
A pest to my mother
A pest to my sister
A pest to my brother

They don't want me
I can see it in their eyes.
But they don't know
I also see through their lies.

So I'm ending my story
A life cut short.
I'll end it all
It's like a personal sport.