Thoughts14

Today's the day
I'm going back to Tennessee
I don't know if I'll continue these journal entries
Doesn't seem like many people read them or care for them anyway
So I'll probably drop the series

Things like this
Raw
Personal
Wide open
Are always easier for me to write while high
Once I'm sober I don't know if I'll have it in me

I did a silly thing the other day
I posted on one of the site's forums
"Looking For Friends"
I introduced myself
Told them a bit about myself
I don't know why
I guess out of desperation?

How foolish of me

Why do the neighbors argue so much?
They're at it again
The kid "Bobby" called his mom a "stupid bitch"
Nice
Stay classy

I woke up to them negotiating a drug deal
Something about a few grams of something
Something about heroine
Something about pills
I've smoked a lot this month but I never want to be as brain dead as these people

I can still function
I can talk
I can type
I can enunciate my words

These people cannot

I smoked the last cigarette in my pack
Hopefully my last cigarette in a long time
Hopefully my last cigarette ever
I'm planning on going vegetarian when I get back home
Start working out again

I hate my body
And I'm tired of it

I've gone through the mental and spiritual change
Now I need physical change