Submissions by unendliche (bria lockhart)

I have an illness,
And it is called myself.

I am so desperate.
I'm getting in over my head.

I regret so many things I've done.
The past is to remind me how broken I am.
How broken I am.

How naive I was.
How naive I was.

I've suffered the consequences,
This world is not for me.
I've suffered the consequences,
I've failed you, I've failed everyone.

I've put so many things above you,
But you still are always there for me.
I don't know who I am anymore.
If I even knew who I was,

How naive I was....

why do people cry?
is it the happiness of hello's
or the fears of goodbyes
maybe its the simple fact that
someone lies

i dont understand it they dont fix you
they dont fix the "why dont you love me?"
or the "i miss you's"

crying is a waist of time anda waist of air
they make matters worse
and it isnt fair

but i have to be honest
i cannot lie
when im sad
sometimes i do nothing
but cut,
and cry

As time goes by from year to year,
One thing is surely true, my dear;
Though decades come and decades go,
Just seeing you sets me aglow.

Time shifts my body; I start to sag,
When I pass a mirror, it can make me gag.
My joints all ache; I can hardly move;
Still a smile from you, and I'm in the groove.

Getting older can be a pain,
But with you along, I can't complain.
Despite the things that we go through,
I know I'll never stop loving you.

Your loving heart turns life to play,
As we laugh at time from day to day.
So I write...

My finger is on the trigger
but your in my way

my fingers on the trigger
*laughs* get out the way


stop me silly
if you want to survive
i laugh evily
"i see fear in your eyes"

i could kill you right now,
NO ONE will miss you.
you start shedding tears
but that honestly wasnt an issue

i pull the trigger
BOOM boOm PoW!
shock written all over his face
as his body hits the ground

i spat on his body
i didnt care to bother
the i killed
was none other
than my "father"...