Submissions by sonyak14 (Heartless_Soul14)

I take 20 steps forward to only take 50 steps back,
What am I doing wrong?
What is it that I lack?
I'm tired of taking all these medications and sitting in therapy chairs staring at blank faces.
Only for them to ask," why are you holding yourself back?"
Well, if I am help me out and tell me where to go next!
I'm buying ounces smoking weed trying to feel numb and I use this guy for sex!
I’m tired of being depressed, living off of recreational happiness and thoughts that I’d never address but...
who would’ve guessed,
That this heart would...

you saw those grey clouds coming my way
not one single word did you have the nerve to say
Helping me would be way out of your league
so you left me there only to beg and plead
Silent yet screaming so loud, you walked away
You said this was nothing but a game i liked to play
If this was true id like to think you made it up
all my thoughts ran like water into an empty cup
If everything around me was apart of the game
I'd take the towel, smear on happiness and wipe away the disappointment and pain
I'd take the remote and fast forward to a time when...

A passion for basketball,skills for life
A dream to come, a team of one
A world of dreams, in my head a thousand of me's
The court is my stage
The ball is my mic
The lights are so bright I could play overnight
The scoreboard is the ocean
The goal is the sea
The backboard is my life
The net is a breeze
As I think of all these things all I imagine is me
But when players unite we become one team
Our sweat is desire
Tiredness is 100% heart
The game becomes energy
The score is dart
Time becomes pressure
Movements become swift...

Daylight comes and I'm still in my room waiting and inticipating the day when ill get up enough courage to stop letting myself be swept up like a broom.
kids laughing ,screaming and enjoying one another, but not me..
I sit and wait for someone to love me. I'm a child left out by myself to care for me on my own while my family all sits around in the cold drinking warm tea.who can love me?
I feel trapped in a cage like a bird in a room with no wings while sit and try to reminisce the bright side of things.you'll never love me like she loved me. .but now there's us and when were...