Submissions by olliec (Oliver Cocks)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Seeking That Star
I was as wounding as you,
but we should have never parted,
never have been not one soul, but two.
We should go mostly back,
revoke the things we willed and sputtered
without due thought. Hand in hand, we’ll unmake
the bleak wall we built and mortared, which bled
us senseless to build. We both fell.
But there’s still time, to re-stitch
our bruised and fissured hearts, to say
what we need to say, and tend
to our aches, heal and allay.
We’ll be as we are,
our lives one star.
but we should have never parted,
never have been not one soul, but two.
We should go mostly back,
revoke the things we willed and sputtered
without due thought. Hand in hand, we’ll unmake
the bleak wall we built and mortared, which bled
us senseless to build. We both fell.
But there’s still time, to re-stitch
our bruised and fissured hearts, to say
what we need to say, and tend
to our aches, heal and allay.
We’ll be as we are,
our lives one star.
#love
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Of Yowling and Beatings
There’s no sound here,
only yowling, only
nonsense noise, endless
There’s no sight here,
only eye-shattering light,
only lid-stitching darkness
I am without present presence,
without an omen of success, without
someone with whom to share,
without the promise of remittance
Still, I would kill to find
the other parts of
my fractioned heart
To revive its beatings
I long to properly be
To de facto exist
And maybe, just perhaps,
if you stretch forth your hands, ...
only yowling, only
nonsense noise, endless
There’s no sight here,
only eye-shattering light,
only lid-stitching darkness
I am without present presence,
without an omen of success, without
someone with whom to share,
without the promise of remittance
Still, I would kill to find
the other parts of
my fractioned heart
To revive its beatings
I long to properly be
To de facto exist
And maybe, just perhaps,
if you stretch forth your hands, ...
#dark
#depression
#love #sadness
#love #sadness
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Raven
First published in the dos-a-dos collection "Amor Novus / A Spontaneous Prayer" alongside work by David Hay.
The days of feasting are over.
It is now time to regurgitate all
to my gluttonous fledglings.
I will hack up vast stores,
and spew them into the eager beaks
of my ravening chicks, my dear progeny.
Ready for them to make their flight
in the great deserts of air and cloud,
and settle where they need.
The days of feasting are over.
It is now time to regurgitate all
to my gluttonous fledglings.
I will hack up vast stores,
and spew them into the eager beaks
of my ravening chicks, my dear progeny.
Ready for them to make their flight
in the great deserts of air and cloud,
and settle where they need.
#birds
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Tony's Horror
On the day of horror,
Tony was teaching at MIT.
“Can anyone tell me the answer?
No? How astonishing!
Will any of you ever do any work?”
Tony said to his first years
(well, tried not to shout-
they should have done it).
They gaped at him, mostly.
Some scowled.
A couple looked away.
“You don’t get a Fields Medal
from doing nothing.
If you want to achieve what I have,
you’ll need to work.
Not play online chess.
Looking at you, Tia.”
Tia frowned, closed her...
Tony was teaching at MIT.
“Can anyone tell me the answer?
No? How astonishing!
Will any of you ever do any work?”
Tony said to his first years
(well, tried not to shout-
they should have done it).
They gaped at him, mostly.
Some scowled.
A couple looked away.
“You don’t get a Fields Medal
from doing nothing.
If you want to achieve what I have,
you’ll need to work.
Not play online chess.
Looking at you, Tia.”
Tia frowned, closed her...
#dark
#death
#family
#love
#sadness
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Ego Found
I sought you, looked for you
in strange places, while I decayed
My ego
The wholeness of my self
The fullness of my being
And now, I stride, and sing,
and gaze, chuffed, at mirrors
in strange places, while I decayed
My ego
The wholeness of my self
The fullness of my being
And now, I stride, and sing,
and gaze, chuffed, at mirrors
#myself
#SelfDiscovery
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Dark His Eyes

#dark
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Of Star and Shadow
Your eyes are the only lights,
but in lieu of a kiss,
of a renewing smooch,
I find only the shadow
of you being here,
only the infinite blackhole
left by your paramount star.
but in lieu of a kiss,
of a renewing smooch,
I find only the shadow
of you being here,
only the infinite blackhole
left by your paramount star.
#love
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Until the Gala Finishes
You eat my empty then leave,
ready for the next soiree.
Yes, you gobble my void,
devour all my dead inside,
then potter off.
Because I am blank,
and you eat it all,
and then, well,
you have another engagement,
a different outing,
better opportunities for exhilaration.
So, I’ll stay here,
until the gala finishes.
ready for the next soiree.
Yes, you gobble my void,
devour all my dead inside,
then potter off.
Because I am blank,
and you eat it all,
and then, well,
you have another engagement,
a different outing,
better opportunities for exhilaration.
So, I’ll stay here,
until the gala finishes.
#dark
#love
#sadness
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The Friends Picnic

#dark
#friendship
#LifeStruggles
#relationships
#sadness
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The Questing Friends
We look for pizza
Strolling through roads
lit by streetlamps,
and the moon and stars
I’m so happy to
have found true pals
After all the phonies
All the supposed supporters
Also, is that the sky?
The air sweats
It’s Friday, we’ve finished uni
Until next week
Maybe it’s Saturday
A gang of us
Five friends
We met last year
In our first year
We need pizza
We have the munchies
We may, ah,
have smoked a tiny bit of weed
Good...
Strolling through roads
lit by streetlamps,
and the moon and stars
I’m so happy to
have found true pals
After all the phonies
All the supposed supporters
Also, is that the sky?
The air sweats
It’s Friday, we’ve finished uni
Until next week
Maybe it’s Saturday
A gang of us
Five friends
We met last year
In our first year
We need pizza
We have the munchies
We may, ah,
have smoked a tiny bit of weed
Good...
#friendship
#stars
#universe
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Deep
in tobacco tar night, and
we’re singing the usual:
“ I C A N ’ T G E T N O ! ”
But your voice
shakes, buckles,
your eyes blaze
with disintegration.
What’s going on?
What’s up?
Why so hasty
to put away the phone?
I try to probe (gentle, now!):
“Is anything…. Ah…”
Tears seep like oil
from a shoddy car.
“It’s just…”
you begin,
“Are we doomed, not blessed,
to be free?
And Ian’s breaking up with me.”
“Oh! There, there,” I say ...
we’re singing the usual:
“ I C A N ’ T G E T N O ! ”
But your voice
shakes, buckles,
your eyes blaze
with disintegration.
What’s going on?
What’s up?
Why so hasty
to put away the phone?
I try to probe (gentle, now!):
“Is anything…. Ah…”
Tears seep like oil
from a shoddy car.
“It’s just…”
you begin,
“Are we doomed, not blessed,
to be free?
And Ian’s breaking up with me.”
“Oh! There, there,” I say ...
#funny
#love
#meditation
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Wisdom
Wisdom is a pipe dream.
We are all fools.
We all know everything,
except true knowings.
When we are born,
we bawl and scream,
grope towards the end
of our serene gestation.
So why not
titter, laugh, and smooch?
We are all fools.
We all know everything,
except true knowings.
When we are born,
we bawl and scream,
grope towards the end
of our serene gestation.
So why not
titter, laugh, and smooch?
#dark
#depression
#love
#sadness
#suffering
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