Submissions by nickbar (Nick Bartek)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
As Deep as she is
She gathers rain from blood soaked clouds and shares shade with a dumpster downtown
Tonight her tears are my amphetamines
Behind a veil of secrecy her makeup drips down both her faces
Cigarette perched between her fingertips
I pierce her reptilian skin at the edge of town in the ghettos darkness
Filling her with water from a puddle as deep as her
As deep as her
Tonight her tears are my amphetamines
Behind a veil of secrecy her makeup drips down both her faces
Cigarette perched between her fingertips
I pierce her reptilian skin at the edge of town in the ghettos darkness
Filling her with water from a puddle as deep as her
As deep as her
#love
#lust
#relationships
#night
#emptiness
595 reads
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The Cardinal
My lack of scales was a dead giveaway
Enslaved in this carefully constructed illusion that has become our hell
I use to sit inside you forever after we both had came
Staring deep into each other’s eyes
My dead skin caked beneath your fingernails
I’ve become everything that I despise
My veins hardened
I wear this mask of scabs to hide from you
Mind ripe with delirium
Paranoia ripping us apart
I watched your eyes roll back into a violent void
My contents emptied inside of you
Your last words whispered were I am scared ...
Enslaved in this carefully constructed illusion that has become our hell
I use to sit inside you forever after we both had came
Staring deep into each other’s eyes
My dead skin caked beneath your fingernails
I’ve become everything that I despise
My veins hardened
I wear this mask of scabs to hide from you
Mind ripe with delirium
Paranoia ripping us apart
I watched your eyes roll back into a violent void
My contents emptied inside of you
Your last words whispered were I am scared ...
#love
#grief
#drugs #addiction
#drugs #addiction
493 reads
12 Comments
Kicking Methadone and Benzos in Solitary Confinement with an Abscess Tooth
Some people are only alive because of the fear of withdrawal
Not God
Not man
You don't deserve to walk upright alongside of us lesser scum
But there is discipline in vengeance
I will let father times icy breath blow my name far from your memory
And just as the winds carry any thoughts of me away and scatter them to unrecognition like the bones of a clandestine corpse dispersed by carnivores
There I'll be
In a back alley
Moonlight beating on my back
Or in a dark bedroom
The pale blue flicker of the tv illuminating my naked face
You...
Not God
Not man
You don't deserve to walk upright alongside of us lesser scum
But there is discipline in vengeance
I will let father times icy breath blow my name far from your memory
And just as the winds carry any thoughts of me away and scatter them to unrecognition like the bones of a clandestine corpse dispersed by carnivores
There I'll be
In a back alley
Moonlight beating on my back
Or in a dark bedroom
The pale blue flicker of the tv illuminating my naked face
You...
#dark
#murder
#revenge
526 reads
3 Comments
A Million Dead Ladybugs
Early morning on the block
They’re chasing dry gin with gun shots
Insects wiggle in wet paint and vinegar
Urban blight, suburban sprawl
They’re closing in on us all
Scumbag
Dirt bag
Fleabag
Free bag
A million dead ladybugs littered on the windowsill
Couldn’t make a single wish before they all were killed
Flipped a switch, roaches scatter
Flipped it off, didn’t matter
They’re chasing dry gin with gun shots
Insects wiggle in wet paint and vinegar
Urban blight, suburban sprawl
They’re closing in on us all
Scumbag
Dirt bag
Fleabag
Free bag
A million dead ladybugs littered on the windowsill
Couldn’t make a single wish before they all were killed
Flipped a switch, roaches scatter
Flipped it off, didn’t matter
#dark
495 reads
8 Comments
Benzoking
Her creamy white stilettos melt into the pavement
Hair like California wildfires
Burning across milky shoulders
I am a whisper to the deaf
A love letter never sent
She hovers over me in a bathroom stall
Sipping nectar from dissected flowers
As empty as a Xanax blackout
Hair like California wildfires
Burning across milky shoulders
I am a whisper to the deaf
A love letter never sent
She hovers over me in a bathroom stall
Sipping nectar from dissected flowers
As empty as a Xanax blackout
#dark
569 reads
4 Comments
Bone Leech
Bloated
Skin corroding
Coated
In translucent
Juices
Dripping
Slipping
In and out of consciousness
Liquid cuffs around each wrist
Slave to a sickness
Afraid of existence
Skin corroding
Coated
In translucent
Juices
Dripping
Slipping
In and out of consciousness
Liquid cuffs around each wrist
Slave to a sickness
Afraid of existence
#abuse
415 reads
2 Comments
Night Hag
Surprise
I am still alive
Dying
Thriving
In the same place you left me
Inside that portal to hell
On the old abandoned block in toxic city
The cancer fills my lungs as I curse your name in between each frozen exhale
My skin is dulled from the perpetual sweat of addiction and my teeth are stained by a million lies
The sky is the pale grey of an overdose victim’s skin and I hate you
Like all the years of dope sickness and isolation
I hate you like narcan
I am still alive
Dying
Thriving
In the same place you left me
Inside that portal to hell
On the old abandoned block in toxic city
The cancer fills my lungs as I curse your name in between each frozen exhale
My skin is dulled from the perpetual sweat of addiction and my teeth are stained by a million lies
The sky is the pale grey of an overdose victim’s skin and I hate you
Like all the years of dope sickness and isolation
I hate you like narcan
#anger
#hate
#loneliness
#abuse
#drugs
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Feelings Coagulate
In the end I know I will see you again
For now I will just save my breath
As our ozone depletes oxygen becomes a commodity
All these harsh realities pummel me into a timid introspective euphoria
Our differences will finally lose relevance
Soon we will be reduced to dust
Every man and woman the same
Our remains form the shorelines to be pounded by tides of chemical waste
Skies bleed into a toxic haze painting our bleak landscape across a city in ruins
Left here to die thousands of years ago
Inconsequential in the grand scheme of...
For now I will just save my breath
As our ozone depletes oxygen becomes a commodity
All these harsh realities pummel me into a timid introspective euphoria
Our differences will finally lose relevance
Soon we will be reduced to dust
Every man and woman the same
Our remains form the shorelines to be pounded by tides of chemical waste
Skies bleed into a toxic haze painting our bleak landscape across a city in ruins
Left here to die thousands of years ago
Inconsequential in the grand scheme of...
#anxiety
#love
#grief
#dark
#death
400 reads
3 Comments
DU Poetry : Submissions by nickbar (Nick Bartek)