Submissions by maria (IRK)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I try to write but then I go back and read what I wrote and realize I kind of suck. I'm really not as smart as I thought
DARK POEM
Published
8th Jan 2012 4:07am
8th Jan 2012 4:07am
Tired
The word 'happy' consumes me
I know it's a word I can never be
To pretend is my fate
And you shouldn't try to help me,
because it's too late
It's worse than it was before.
All this unwanted attention,
I feel like a mind whore.
Please. No more pills and therapy.
They're far from helping me.
Just let me go lay down to close my eyes
and I'll be at peace when I don't wake up
Just, I can't feel anymore.
You tell me you hate me and
I just want more.
I gash myself with blades,
knowing I'll go deeper, too deep someday.
And there's...
I know it's a word I can never be
To pretend is my fate
And you shouldn't try to help me,
because it's too late
It's worse than it was before.
All this unwanted attention,
I feel like a mind whore.
Please. No more pills and therapy.
They're far from helping me.
Just let me go lay down to close my eyes
and I'll be at peace when I don't wake up
Just, I can't feel anymore.
You tell me you hate me and
I just want more.
I gash myself with blades,
knowing I'll go deeper, too deep someday.
And there's...
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DARK POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2011 5:33am
22nd Dec 2011 5:33am
Window
I want to walk on top of the building and look down
I want to step on the edge and let my knees go week
Looking down at my feet I think,"What if I slip when I'm not ready to jump?"
Adrenalin rushes through me and I say. "I'm ready. Are you." Not knowing exactly who I'm talking to.
And I close my eyes, spread my arms, feel the breeze blow my hair as images of smiles flash in my mind.
Somewhere I am not, I hear music and laughter in the distance.
These people will never be the same after.
When I've jumped and pain has taken me to the bottom.
...
I want to step on the edge and let my knees go week
Looking down at my feet I think,"What if I slip when I'm not ready to jump?"
Adrenalin rushes through me and I say. "I'm ready. Are you." Not knowing exactly who I'm talking to.
And I close my eyes, spread my arms, feel the breeze blow my hair as images of smiles flash in my mind.
Somewhere I am not, I hear music and laughter in the distance.
These people will never be the same after.
When I've jumped and pain has taken me to the bottom.
...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
30th Nov 2011 6:00pm
30th Nov 2011 6:00pm
Blue & White
I think they've gottan so used to the music
They've gottan so used to the lying
They see you but not you.
They don't see you dying
They see not the truth, and they are not seen by you
They all wear masks as they occupy with life's petty tasks
I don't think they have cared to ask
They don't want to know the truth
They walk around blue and white when they know it isn't right
Like..they want to be black
They never come back
We lose ourselves and we lose help
They can't help when they are...
They've gottan so used to the lying
They see you but not you.
They don't see you dying
They see not the truth, and they are not seen by you
They all wear masks as they occupy with life's petty tasks
I don't think they have cared to ask
They don't want to know the truth
They walk around blue and white when they know it isn't right
Like..they want to be black
They never come back
We lose ourselves and we lose help
They can't help when they are...
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LOVE POEM
Published
30th Nov 2011 2:40am
30th Nov 2011 2:40am
Pair
Splitting open
Falling apart
Walls caving in
Cliche shit
I know
Feel broken
Feel like fragile glass
Cold glass
Words are hot water
I'm on drugs
Life's like sooo
wavy
And the color of my shirt
is navy
And I love you and the way
you hurt me
The way you want to desert me
I'm messed up
you're fucked up
Great pair
Life's pain we'll share
And the fragile promises tear
Yes, I know life isn't fair
We've agreed
We've agreed we're a great fucked up pair.
Falling apart
Walls caving in
Cliche shit
I know
Feel broken
Feel like fragile glass
Cold glass
Words are hot water
I'm on drugs
Life's like sooo
wavy
And the color of my shirt
is navy
And I love you and the way
you hurt me
The way you want to desert me
I'm messed up
you're fucked up
Great pair
Life's pain we'll share
And the fragile promises tear
Yes, I know life isn't fair
We've agreed
We've agreed we're a great fucked up pair.
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DARK POEM
Published
30th Nov 2011 2:35am
30th Nov 2011 2:35am
Done
You've all had your fun.
Now can I pull the damn trigger?
This will just make my fucked up life end quicker
I know you don't care.
That's not the case
and I know you won't remember having ever seen my face
But, for some reason, I want you all to feel some..
disgrace
Something, a pain you can't erase.
And through a brief phase of guilt...
Maybe you'll understand how I felt..?
Anyways. Hope you all have a fun life,
no point in thinking of another's strife.
Now, I'll grab the gun... Oh...
How fun...
Now can I pull the damn trigger?
This will just make my fucked up life end quicker
I know you don't care.
That's not the case
and I know you won't remember having ever seen my face
But, for some reason, I want you all to feel some..
disgrace
Something, a pain you can't erase.
And through a brief phase of guilt...
Maybe you'll understand how I felt..?
Anyways. Hope you all have a fun life,
no point in thinking of another's strife.
Now, I'll grab the gun... Oh...
How fun...
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DARK POEM
Published
23rd Nov 2011 9:05pm
23rd Nov 2011 9:05pm
Red
It feels so good
The pain sears
It feels so good
My eyes don't even tear
It feels so good
All these 13 years
I could just slice a tear
right here
on my arm
And for a minute,
I have no fears
And for a minute,
I'm actually here
And for a minute,
I forget it all
I forget to fall
I forget to scream
Sounds like sleep
so sweet
And the color
Oh, the vibrancy
Can red be more beautiful?
Can it be more real?
Can it be more real than how I feel?
The pain sears
It feels so good
My eyes don't even tear
It feels so good
All these 13 years
I could just slice a tear
right here
on my arm
And for a minute,
I have no fears
And for a minute,
I'm actually here
And for a minute,
I forget it all
I forget to fall
I forget to scream
Sounds like sleep
so sweet
And the color
Oh, the vibrancy
Can red be more beautiful?
Can it be more real?
Can it be more real than how I feel?
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ANGER POEM
Published
23rd Nov 2011 9:04pm
23rd Nov 2011 9:04pm
Rage
I get that feeling
so hard to put in words
I get that feeling
and it hurts
I want to rip you apart
I want to rip out your fucken heart
I want to take your soul
My eyes black as coal
I become a demon
and my heart is cold
I destroy everything
I'm a tornado of rage
The world becomes my stage
I want to entertain you
I want to freak you the fuck out
I want to scare you
I want you to feel terror
and feel like there's no safety from me
I want to eat your...
so hard to put in words
I get that feeling
and it hurts
I want to rip you apart
I want to rip out your fucken heart
I want to take your soul
My eyes black as coal
I become a demon
and my heart is cold
I destroy everything
I'm a tornado of rage
The world becomes my stage
I want to entertain you
I want to freak you the fuck out
I want to scare you
I want you to feel terror
and feel like there's no safety from me
I want to eat your...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
22nd Nov 2011 3:30pm
22nd Nov 2011 3:30pm
Spice Trip (what he named it)
(can't spell that one word)
Damn this crosiont
Damn this crosiont is so good
It feels amazing in my mouth
Holy shit what am I doing?
Oh man. Haha
Holy crap the cat's mad
Blalhwahah
Finish. I am done
(by my brother-he's baked)
Damn this crosiont
Damn this crosiont is so good
It feels amazing in my mouth
Holy shit what am I doing?
Oh man. Haha
Holy crap the cat's mad
Blalhwahah
Finish. I am done
(by my brother-he's baked)
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DARK POEM
Published
22nd Nov 2011 2:39pm
22nd Nov 2011 2:39pm
Passion of Pain
And passion cannot be expressed this way
I'm hurting and I want to die
I want to scream and pull out my hair
I want to cry
I want to be able to just cry
If tears could make it go away, maybe, just maybe I would
cry all day
And passion, passion to cry, burns away
And again, I just want to die
It aches. My eyes are dry, but I just want to cry
Those vulnerable places, aching for something abrasive
I slide it down hard
I can't cry. Why?
The blood is so red.
It's drops drip on my bed
I feel dizzy in my head
And passion,...
I'm hurting and I want to die
I want to scream and pull out my hair
I want to cry
I want to be able to just cry
If tears could make it go away, maybe, just maybe I would
cry all day
And passion, passion to cry, burns away
And again, I just want to die
It aches. My eyes are dry, but I just want to cry
Those vulnerable places, aching for something abrasive
I slide it down hard
I can't cry. Why?
The blood is so red.
It's drops drip on my bed
I feel dizzy in my head
And passion,...
950 reads
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ANGER POEM
Published
21st Nov 2011 3:57pm
21st Nov 2011 3:57pm
Go Die
All the secrets leak
All the promises break
Sometimes I feel life is a fucken mistake
I can't take this anymore
I can't go on
I try and I'm too late
This is my fate
Wait. Did you say you care?
Oh yeah. Another fucken lie
Fuck you
I hate you all
I hope you all die
All the promises break
Sometimes I feel life is a fucken mistake
I can't take this anymore
I can't go on
I try and I'm too late
This is my fate
Wait. Did you say you care?
Oh yeah. Another fucken lie
Fuck you
I hate you all
I hope you all die
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ANGER POEM
Published
19th Nov 2011 1:00am
19th Nov 2011 1:00am
Aching Moments
On these blood spattered walls
marks the moments of your fails
Marks the moments you made me hurt
And with each new aching pain
a scar will remain
marks the moments of your fails
Marks the moments you made me hurt
And with each new aching pain
a scar will remain
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
18th Nov 2011 5:45pm
18th Nov 2011 5:45pm
Fight the Desire
And the carcass burns
yeah, it burns
the smell is like rot
and my soul is hot
I see the carcass burn
and the fire is hot
and the desire is not right
yeah, it's something I need to fight
because the desire isn't right
yeah, it burns
the smell is like rot
and my soul is hot
I see the carcass burn
and the fire is hot
and the desire is not right
yeah, it's something I need to fight
because the desire isn't right
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