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Poet Introduction
Just write what I feel
4am
4am......again.
My head and my heart are on the same side
but even together from this need they can't hide
It's nobody's fault, there's no-one to blame
it's killing me inside this unimaginable shame
Why can't I stop, just stop playing the game
but night after night its always the same
I try to ignore it but the urge is so strong
I make the decision I know is so wrong
The deal is done I try not to seem keen,
The worst of me showing, my desperation is seen
I keep going back, can't leave it alone ...
My head and my heart are on the same side
but even together from this need they can't hide
It's nobody's fault, there's no-one to blame
it's killing me inside this unimaginable shame
Why can't I stop, just stop playing the game
but night after night its always the same
I try to ignore it but the urge is so strong
I make the decision I know is so wrong
The deal is done I try not to seem keen,
The worst of me showing, my desperation is seen
I keep going back, can't leave it alone ...
#addiction
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please don't
Don’t think you never knew me
You knew me through and through
This wasn’t part of who I was
My love for you was true
I was the daughter you thought you had
It wasn’t all a lie
Don’t search for any answers
No one can tell you why
Don’t remember me like that
A lying selfish thief
I swear I tried to fight it
Its power beyond belief
Please forgive me please I beg
Don’t share the hate I feel
Self-loathing and pure disgust
It’s all part of the deal
I hope you look at my picture
And all you ever see
Is the...
You knew me through and through
This wasn’t part of who I was
My love for you was true
I was the daughter you thought you had
It wasn’t all a lie
Don’t search for any answers
No one can tell you why
Don’t remember me like that
A lying selfish thief
I swear I tried to fight it
Its power beyond belief
Please forgive me please I beg
Don’t share the hate I feel
Self-loathing and pure disgust
It’s all part of the deal
I hope you look at my picture
And all you ever see
Is the...
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No choice
Addiction does not offer choice
Oh you disagree ??....
Then come here, look and listen
to what it's done to me.
Who would choose to give away all of them that's good ?
If I could 'choose' to trade back now
DONT YOU THINK I WOULD ?
Oh you disagree ??....
Then come here, look and listen
to what it's done to me.
Who would choose to give away all of them that's good ?
If I could 'choose' to trade back now
DONT YOU THINK I WOULD ?
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One day
One day I was happy
One day I was free
One day I truely knew myself
I liked being me
Then one day it happened
Right before my eyes
But by now it has blinded me
I'm believing my own lies
In a blur "friends" are gone
Wanting turns to need
Leaving just the 'habit' left
A habit I must feed
One day some years later
Happiness is a line
Freedom long gone in the past
My life no longer mine
One day I look into my mirror
What do you think I see ?
I don't recognise or like her
How can that be me ?...
One day I was free
One day I truely knew myself
I liked being me
Then one day it happened
Right before my eyes
But by now it has blinded me
I'm believing my own lies
In a blur "friends" are gone
Wanting turns to need
Leaving just the 'habit' left
A habit I must feed
One day some years later
Happiness is a line
Freedom long gone in the past
My life no longer mine
One day I look into my mirror
What do you think I see ?
I don't recognise or like her
How can that be me ?...
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others
Reading your words... a mirror to my mind
an understanding I never thought possible to find
knowing your out there feeling the same, suffering in silence and hiding the pain, I'm no longer alone but its bitter sweet
because i know just how hard this thing is to beat
Do you know what, just fuck it ! Don't care anymore !
...who am I kidding as I slouch to the floor
Just don't think, that will make it okay
make it disappear at least for today
just want a break, a clear conscience and head
just for one day be normal... but then....
Ill have...
an understanding I never thought possible to find
knowing your out there feeling the same, suffering in silence and hiding the pain, I'm no longer alone but its bitter sweet
because i know just how hard this thing is to beat
Do you know what, just fuck it ! Don't care anymore !
...who am I kidding as I slouch to the floor
Just don't think, that will make it okay
make it disappear at least for today
just want a break, a clear conscience and head
just for one day be normal... but then....
Ill have...
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0 Comments
4am......again.
My head and my heart are on the same side
but even together from this need they can't hide
It's nobody's fault, there's noone to blame
it's killing me inside this unimaginable shame
Why can't I stop, just stop playing the game
but night after night its always the same
I try to ignore it but the urge is so strong
I make the decision I know is so wrong
The deal is done I try not to seem keen,
The worst of me showing, my desperation is seen
I keep going back, can't leave it alone
I know when it's gone ill be back on the phone...
but even together from this need they can't hide
It's nobody's fault, there's noone to blame
it's killing me inside this unimaginable shame
Why can't I stop, just stop playing the game
but night after night its always the same
I try to ignore it but the urge is so strong
I make the decision I know is so wrong
The deal is done I try not to seem keen,
The worst of me showing, my desperation is seen
I keep going back, can't leave it alone
I know when it's gone ill be back on the phone...
1053 reads
6 Comments
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