Submissions by knifesalesmen
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
The first step
We're not just getting drunk.
We're also giving up.
I can taste your breath and I'm trying so hard to move past this.
Memories I am constantly trapped in
when I desperately need to focus on the present.
I'm drinking to forget.
I'm drinking to pretend.
I'll sleep until I'm forced to wake up again.
I'll sleep until we're reconnected.
What else am I supposed to do with all this time I have to myself to focus on the past?
Let's put this to bed.
We're also giving up.
I can taste your breath and I'm trying so hard to move past this.
Memories I am constantly trapped in
when I desperately need to focus on the present.
I'm drinking to forget.
I'm drinking to pretend.
I'll sleep until I'm forced to wake up again.
I'll sleep until we're reconnected.
What else am I supposed to do with all this time I have to myself to focus on the past?
Let's put this to bed.
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Muscle Memory
So lucky
you should know you are.
The memories we shared barely happened at all.
We're at the end now
steadily drifting apart
like candles waning
until all the wax melts off.
Oh well.
Fuck me.
I guess I can see other people.
I guess that I can fake being happy.
Oh well.
Fuck me.
I've been here before
It's almost muscle fucking memory.
you should know you are.
The memories we shared barely happened at all.
We're at the end now
steadily drifting apart
like candles waning
until all the wax melts off.
Oh well.
Fuck me.
I guess I can see other people.
I guess that I can fake being happy.
Oh well.
Fuck me.
I've been here before
It's almost muscle fucking memory.
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Behind closed doors
If we plan to grow old together
we need to reserve time for ourselves
otherwise we'll both be shells of who we were
by the time we're thirty.
We already ache
Nothing special happens anyways
I'm unimpressed.
I'm drawn to people I've imagined in my head.
You could say I've been on autopilot for a couple months now.
"Yeah, that sucks" "I am sorry," "Love you too"
"stay safe" "can't wait for summer"
"I wasn't shouting, I wasn't shouting, if you can't calm down then I am leaving,
if you do not chill out, I'm leaving."
We haven't...
we need to reserve time for ourselves
otherwise we'll both be shells of who we were
by the time we're thirty.
We already ache
Nothing special happens anyways
I'm unimpressed.
I'm drawn to people I've imagined in my head.
You could say I've been on autopilot for a couple months now.
"Yeah, that sucks" "I am sorry," "Love you too"
"stay safe" "can't wait for summer"
"I wasn't shouting, I wasn't shouting, if you can't calm down then I am leaving,
if you do not chill out, I'm leaving."
We haven't...
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Diocese
I fled the church
Due to misunderstanding the verses
that were stuck in my head
and the women whispered
under their breath
and the church bells rang
as if to beckon me back
But I held on tight
and continued running
down the rainy street
towards a vacant alley
which would be my shelter from the rain
but they cut me off at the corner
and asked why
and I clenched my fists and closed my eyes.
I couldn't help but to get real loud
and I didn't ever want to calm the fuck down
I blew smoke out through my nose
and they didn't...
Due to misunderstanding the verses
that were stuck in my head
and the women whispered
under their breath
and the church bells rang
as if to beckon me back
But I held on tight
and continued running
down the rainy street
towards a vacant alley
which would be my shelter from the rain
but they cut me off at the corner
and asked why
and I clenched my fists and closed my eyes.
I couldn't help but to get real loud
and I didn't ever want to calm the fuck down
I blew smoke out through my nose
and they didn't...
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Guess When, and Say Yes Then
These hands that hold me are only half-way open
The eyes that once watched me are now fully closed.
It's a game of smoke and fun-house mirrors,
And nobody's ever who they think they are
The draining Sun has collected my color
and it's washed me of any essence of who i could have been
There's room for two, yet we choose to ignore the rule
And we'll die alone and we'll never give it another look back.
If the summer comes and you're still this cold, then I think I'll take a fucking hike
The eyes that once watched me are now fully closed.
It's a game of smoke and fun-house mirrors,
And nobody's ever who they think they are
The draining Sun has collected my color
and it's washed me of any essence of who i could have been
There's room for two, yet we choose to ignore the rule
And we'll die alone and we'll never give it another look back.
If the summer comes and you're still this cold, then I think I'll take a fucking hike
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Covered Bridge
I am riding the back of a veering sunset
Hoping to find where I belong
the sun has dropped, the moon's on top
of the sky, and we're lost underneath
choking on poisonous fumes as the sun rests
It was cute at first but I guess I was blinded
and mistook ignorance for kindness.
I am trapped inside a glass box that could go at any minute
And when the sun comes up,
I'll be burnt for sure, I'll be burnt for sure.
Hoping to find where I belong
the sun has dropped, the moon's on top
of the sky, and we're lost underneath
choking on poisonous fumes as the sun rests
It was cute at first but I guess I was blinded
and mistook ignorance for kindness.
I am trapped inside a glass box that could go at any minute
And when the sun comes up,
I'll be burnt for sure, I'll be burnt for sure.
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Danger Prone Daphne Does it Again
These loveless eyes of mine have grown cold
In this freezing world of less skin, but more bones
How we always had to imagine something else
makes me sick to my stomach because this world will get worse
And I have probably lost my fucking mind
But that's what happens when you're alone for too long
The roads have faded and collected so much dust
It's hard to even see where you are going or where you're drifting off course
You can't tell much difference
It's nobody's business, but I have lost all hope
In this freezing world of less skin, but more bones
How we always had to imagine something else
makes me sick to my stomach because this world will get worse
And I have probably lost my fucking mind
But that's what happens when you're alone for too long
The roads have faded and collected so much dust
It's hard to even see where you are going or where you're drifting off course
You can't tell much difference
It's nobody's business, but I have lost all hope
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Circle
Brothers laying summers away together
Sweetness of youth is forever
But the rain, she'll still come back
Drowning the flowers like the winter's a warning
spring is an illusion, we're thawing out and jumping back into the pond
We're treating lilies like they'll never last,
and simply because it's a goddamned fact,
They'll never ever keep their composition in a freezing world
and their bodies will fall right back to the ground
and become enriching sustenance for the ones that have claimed their former spots.
Sweetness of youth is forever
But the rain, she'll still come back
Drowning the flowers like the winter's a warning
spring is an illusion, we're thawing out and jumping back into the pond
We're treating lilies like they'll never last,
and simply because it's a goddamned fact,
They'll never ever keep their composition in a freezing world
and their bodies will fall right back to the ground
and become enriching sustenance for the ones that have claimed their former spots.
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Tether
Looking at a blank sheet of paper
as if words will just appear
I am nothing more than a guy who rambles lazily.
In these truths, it is best for me to grasp my psyche stability
and reach for something to keep me tethered to a surface
Otherwise I'll lose all of the feeling that I have left
And you better believe that number is skinny.
I have been pulling at random wires in my brain
Hoping it'll produce electricity
But all I get is toxic waste
All I think about is pain
If it's cool with you, I'm gonna try
Something else to increase my happiness...
as if words will just appear
I am nothing more than a guy who rambles lazily.
In these truths, it is best for me to grasp my psyche stability
and reach for something to keep me tethered to a surface
Otherwise I'll lose all of the feeling that I have left
And you better believe that number is skinny.
I have been pulling at random wires in my brain
Hoping it'll produce electricity
But all I get is toxic waste
All I think about is pain
If it's cool with you, I'm gonna try
Something else to increase my happiness...
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Shell
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And Finally, When We All Thought We Had Escaped... We Hadn't.
You crawl on your hands and knees waiting for a sign,
A sign of what's next for the coming days
The wind stops for no man, it seems.
We'll all be eaten by the cycle, and reborn as trees
So cage up all the evil within you,
There's no reason to keep trying to smash the glass
We've wanted what you want,
We have suffered because of the same ghosts
Fuck the sounds that dwell in the dark,
they're all talk and no matter what
we are all scared of what they could be,
They'll chew us up and spit us out,
Just to watch us cry about our aching hands and feet...
A sign of what's next for the coming days
The wind stops for no man, it seems.
We'll all be eaten by the cycle, and reborn as trees
So cage up all the evil within you,
There's no reason to keep trying to smash the glass
We've wanted what you want,
We have suffered because of the same ghosts
Fuck the sounds that dwell in the dark,
they're all talk and no matter what
we are all scared of what they could be,
They'll chew us up and spit us out,
Just to watch us cry about our aching hands and feet...
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The Water Kept Rising, Until There Was Nothing But
There's a hole in the world that is kept a secret.
The wick on this candle needs to be constantly wet.
If we let our guard down, we would surely die next.
There's a hole in the floor of the ocean.
There is room for a dozen baby's coffins.
The fish down there don't bite anymore.
They just steal you and make you wish for death.
Can you compare the vitality between your life and nature's?
You'll lose that argument every time it's mentioned.
The wick on this candle needs to be constantly wet.
If we let our guard down, we would surely die next.
There's a hole in the floor of the ocean.
There is room for a dozen baby's coffins.
The fish down there don't bite anymore.
They just steal you and make you wish for death.
Can you compare the vitality between your life and nature's?
You'll lose that argument every time it's mentioned.
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