Submissions by kilanti
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I’m Kenny.
SELF POEM
Published
26th Jul 2018 7:08am
26th Jul 2018 7:08am
One line
I hate that I hate hating myself.
#MentalHealth
#EatingDisorder
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LOVE POEM
Published
25th Jul 2018 8:08pm
25th Jul 2018 8:08pm
The Snow Won’t Stop Tonight
I promise, love, if we find ways to stay warm
We both can make it through the storm
I promise I'll wait
If I have to I’ll hibernate
For being awake is too much pain
But I’ll keep you warm again one day
We both can make it through the storm
I promise I'll wait
If I have to I’ll hibernate
For being awake is too much pain
But I’ll keep you warm again one day
#winter
#LongDistanceRelationship
#separation
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SELF POEM
Published
25th Jul 2018 8:03pm
25th Jul 2018 8:03pm
Disengaged
Drowning in my pillow
In my dark room with a window
And the blinds are too much light
The gray walls are much too bright
And I’m trapped in a limbo
The bar is crushing down too low
There’s a sharp pain in my chest
I’m tired from getting too much rest
And what can I say or where can I go
I need to leave these walls but I don’t want to know
What it’s like to be with friends because the nights always end
And I’m back all alone
In what they gag down my throat
Home?
I don’t think so
Even...
In my dark room with a window
And the blinds are too much light
The gray walls are much too bright
And I’m trapped in a limbo
The bar is crushing down too low
There’s a sharp pain in my chest
I’m tired from getting too much rest
And what can I say or where can I go
I need to leave these walls but I don’t want to know
What it’s like to be with friends because the nights always end
And I’m back all alone
In what they gag down my throat
Home?
I don’t think so
Even...
#anxiety
#heartbroken
#MentalHealth
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LOVE POEM
Published
18th Dec 2017 9:58am
18th Dec 2017 9:58am
Panic
The sheets reeked of sweaty kissing, mixed perfume, and naked rest.
Sitting on my hands
Head hung from my shoulders
Tears rolled away all that had been on my chest.
Confiding in my best friend,
my lover,
my soulmate.
I'd been too scared to talk about the toxic thoughts I'd been shooting in my veins.
And it all poured out.
Lips trembling, and words stumbling.
Hitched breath, sweaty palms,
you grabbed my hands to stop the anxious fumbling.
Yes, there you sat. Brows furrowed and brown eyes watching
I could see the...
Sitting on my hands
Head hung from my shoulders
Tears rolled away all that had been on my chest.
Confiding in my best friend,
my lover,
my soulmate.
I'd been too scared to talk about the toxic thoughts I'd been shooting in my veins.
And it all poured out.
Lips trembling, and words stumbling.
Hitched breath, sweaty palms,
you grabbed my hands to stop the anxious fumbling.
Yes, there you sat. Brows furrowed and brown eyes watching
I could see the...
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LOVE POEM
Published
13th Dec 2017 10:33pm
13th Dec 2017 10:33pm
Moon and Sun
For we are in the sky
Moon and sun
We are split by the stars
But our world is one
Shadow and light
Day and night
Dreams and life
Black and white
I know during the day
It should be your time
But sometimes I can't wait
So I sneak up to see you shine
And it's alright with me
When it is the night
Because even though you can't be there too
From you is where I get my light
Moon and sun
We are split by the stars
But our world is one
Shadow and light
Day and night
Dreams and life
Black and white
I know during the day
It should be your time
But sometimes I can't wait
So I sneak up to see you shine
And it's alright with me
When it is the night
Because even though you can't be there too
From you is where I get my light
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LOVE POEM
Published
13th Dec 2017 10:13pm
13th Dec 2017 10:13pm
Background
I could love you as much as
you run away from it
I hate that it's over
And what we could've been
I miss us and I can't
Remember what it's like
To smile in bed after
Turning out the lights
I fell for you rather
Than falling fast asleep
Each day that passes
Stings like eyes dipped in chlorine
And I can't deny that
I'm breaking from your highs
Because I'm in the background and
I see smiles in your eyes
And each time you feel alright
I wish I was alright next to you
But that's selfish...
you run away from it
I hate that it's over
And what we could've been
I miss us and I can't
Remember what it's like
To smile in bed after
Turning out the lights
I fell for you rather
Than falling fast asleep
Each day that passes
Stings like eyes dipped in chlorine
And I can't deny that
I'm breaking from your highs
Because I'm in the background and
I see smiles in your eyes
And each time you feel alright
I wish I was alright next to you
But that's selfish...
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DARK POEM
Published
18th Oct 2017 00:21am
18th Oct 2017 00:21am
Do You Too
Pulsing, burning, I wince but it's what I wanted.
Broken razors hidden in the trash, red words leaving me haunted.
I can't shower, without these stinging.
I can't lay in peace, without the metal shouting and singing.
"Come on, just once more, we'll make you feel better."
Holding back until I erupt, shamefully giving myself to their pleasure.
Long, too-hot sleeves, constantly folded under my thumb.
This is all I need, everything else is numb.
Tuck in my shirt, keep my belly in the dark.
Scratch them at night, the words and...
Broken razors hidden in the trash, red words leaving me haunted.
I can't shower, without these stinging.
I can't lay in peace, without the metal shouting and singing.
"Come on, just once more, we'll make you feel better."
Holding back until I erupt, shamefully giving myself to their pleasure.
Long, too-hot sleeves, constantly folded under my thumb.
This is all I need, everything else is numb.
Tuck in my shirt, keep my belly in the dark.
Scratch them at night, the words and...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
12th Sep 2017 7:11am
12th Sep 2017 7:11am
2 Year Anniversary
my two year anniversary with the hospital
I insisted I didn't need to go.
"I just want to go home" my monotone voice rang with alarming-anger as I stared at the cheap tile floor. My throat swelled with anxiety and my eyes burned with defeat.. They didn't understand. I needed to go home.
Yet I found myself moments later in a painfully silent drive with my mother to the hospital.
She'd make a small comment every rare moment. Despite my desire to hug her and reassure the okay-ness of the...
I insisted I didn't need to go.
"I just want to go home" my monotone voice rang with alarming-anger as I stared at the cheap tile floor. My throat swelled with anxiety and my eyes burned with defeat.. They didn't understand. I needed to go home.
Yet I found myself moments later in a painfully silent drive with my mother to the hospital.
She'd make a small comment every rare moment. Despite my desire to hug her and reassure the okay-ness of the...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
21st Aug 2017 3:51am
21st Aug 2017 3:51am
Too Far
A flat chested, innocent, young girl. Bows wrapped in my hair, flowers on my shoes. Going out I would skip the streets. Smiling at strangers and humming happy tunes.
"Not too far!" mother would yell. She'd run to grab my hand, keep me close to her. I just wanted to play. I didn't understand the concern.
As years passed, I bloomed
-- men's stares grew louder,
my mom's grip grew tighter, suddenly, I didn't want to play.
I didn't want to explore, I didn't want to catch up with my brothers.
I wanted to shrink behind my hair and...
"Not too far!" mother would yell. She'd run to grab my hand, keep me close to her. I just wanted to play. I didn't understand the concern.
As years passed, I bloomed
-- men's stares grew louder,
my mom's grip grew tighter, suddenly, I didn't want to play.
I didn't want to explore, I didn't want to catch up with my brothers.
I wanted to shrink behind my hair and...
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SELF POEM
Published
18th Aug 2017 6:17am
18th Aug 2017 6:17am
Anxiety
Hello old friend,
or whatever you are.
it's been three years
I still see your scars.
You push them away,
I know that's what you like to do.
And you hide so well,
except from my view.
And you can sleep in my bed,
I know you will anyway,
And since you've unpacked all your things, in the morning
you know you can stay.
or whatever you are.
it's been three years
I still see your scars.
You push them away,
I know that's what you like to do.
And you hide so well,
except from my view.
And you can sleep in my bed,
I know you will anyway,
And since you've unpacked all your things, in the morning
you know you can stay.
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SONG LYRICS
Published
1st Aug 2017 8:18pm
1st Aug 2017 8:18pm
Do You
Do you, feel that emptiness too?
Like no kiss goodnight, no chords that are right?
Do you, still remember my laugh,
the silvery waves that sent chills down your spine?
Do you, look up at the moon,
In hopes that I'm watching it too?..
--
Do you, just have so much to say,
but when you get your pen out your hand hesitates?
Do you, ever go to the store?
Thinking maybe you’ll see me in aisle 4.
Do you, skip my favorite songs,
because they just remind you I can’t sing along..?
--
...
Like no kiss goodnight, no chords that are right?
Do you, still remember my laugh,
the silvery waves that sent chills down your spine?
Do you, look up at the moon,
In hopes that I'm watching it too?..
--
Do you, just have so much to say,
but when you get your pen out your hand hesitates?
Do you, ever go to the store?
Thinking maybe you’ll see me in aisle 4.
Do you, skip my favorite songs,
because they just remind you I can’t sing along..?
--
...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
31st Jul 2017 5:16am
31st Jul 2017 5:16am
One Size Fits All
I can wrap my fingers around my wrist,
I can fit a size 0, I weigh less than 100.
I'm thin, but when you look at me, do you think it's enough to die?
Is my face so sunken in that you can't help but stare and wonder why?
Do you think I'm anorexic, or that I do the scouts honor?
Do you secretly hope I'm getting professional help from a doctor?
My guess is no.
Because well, you can't see my ribs, and I have an at-risk chin
and when I sit down my thighs spread like a drop of oil in a basin.
My bones don't stand out...
I can fit a size 0, I weigh less than 100.
I'm thin, but when you look at me, do you think it's enough to die?
Is my face so sunken in that you can't help but stare and wonder why?
Do you think I'm anorexic, or that I do the scouts honor?
Do you secretly hope I'm getting professional help from a doctor?
My guess is no.
Because well, you can't see my ribs, and I have an at-risk chin
and when I sit down my thighs spread like a drop of oil in a basin.
My bones don't stand out...
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